going to office this day, i gave my salary for my father, 5k for the church and 5k for his project, then we found out that 1k for his project was lost. i am really shattered. takte!! bkit!! dun ko lng nilagay yun, cnong kumuha?!!!
sobrang depressing kasi. hindi naman un para sakin, para yun sa pagtulong ko tapos ganun pa. my first 2 salaries were not spent for my self alone, but i gave it to my loved ones and my Priority. then why? it's so unfair tlaga.
ewan ko ba. kung anu-ano naiisip ko ngayon. cguro nagtatampo sakin ang AMA. naipangako ko kasi magbibigay ako ng 10 k sa church sa unang sweldo ko. ang nangyari kasi my first salary was spent for my graduation. tpos siguro karma- kamuntikan n kong grumaduate sa taxi. buti nlang 2 minutes before the ceremony starts, nasa word trade center nako. tpos ngayon kasi, i halved the 10k promise. 5k for my father, because i also promise that i would help him for his project in cagayan, so 5k nalng matitira for the church. kulang ng another 5k. kea siguro nwalan ako ng 1k for my father's project. haay. nakakaiyak talaga. pede po bang intindihin muna AMA. haay.....
may tatlo akong suspect eh-c nanay, c carla-kapatid ko, c ate ruby-kamag-anak namin na tagalinis ng bahay. syempre ang nanay ko hindi nya yun gagawin sakin, sa dami ng pera nun. so dalawa nalang, c carla at ate ruby. hindi naman kasi naka-lock ang kwarto ko at yung pera nilagay ko lang dun sa gilid ng cabinet ko.
c carla: 1. labas - pasok sa kwarto ko; 2. galit un sakin eh, ksi dapt sbay kaming pupuntang mindoro for our reunion pero di na natuloy kasi nahiya na ko magpaalam dito sa office; 3. madami na syang history ng pangunguha ng pera sa bahay, mostly si nanay ang biktima. kahit kitang-kita na, never naman syang umamin.
c ate ruby:1. labas-pasok din sya sa kwarto ko, syempre nililinis nya un; 2. tinanong ko sya sabi nya never daw sya naglinis dun, pero nung inulit ko ung tanong-nagwawalis lang daw sya at hindi nya pinupunasan ang mga bagay-bagay sa kwarto ko. (bakit kelangan nyang mag-deny na naglinis sya when i first asked her, and kapag ba walis lang ginawa mo, would that free you from getting money to my cabinet...); 3. nasa gipit sila ngayon. suppose to be going to abroad sya to work but it was found out that she was pregnant, she does not have any other work than to be our helpy.
ayun. pinagdasal ko nalng ang mga bagay-bagay. nakakadepress.... haay..........
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
goals/wish list
It's really hard to anticipate something on which you're not sure of. I'm hoping that by the end of this month, i would be able to know: 1. whether or not i'll continue my job here, whether i'll be absorbed or given some other works to do. 2. praying to pass my panel interview for sseayp at the 26ht of may. really hoping to be part of it.
i wish to have a vacation grande for this month. actually i initiated to have our first time ever vacation with the whole family at cagayan but i was not able to come due to work which made me really gloomy. then the mindoro reunion is also missed. the only thing that happened was our reunion in my mother side at the club house which is very near to us. im still hoping to have that dream vacation because that's is a gift for my hardworks during college days. oh god please give it to me!
right now, im really at thinking mode on how will i have a financially stable life. i have big plans and i need big money. when i was given the opportunity to work here, they said im fortunate because of my salary and the nature of work however, unfortunately the salary is spent already and i have zero savings. but im happy because i was given a chance to give something for my loved ones and my Priority. it just made me realize that 20k is not enough for me, for my needs or i should have managed it well. parang pup, its not the budget but the misallocation of budget. hehe..
un lng naman. ^^
i wish to have a vacation grande for this month. actually i initiated to have our first time ever vacation with the whole family at cagayan but i was not able to come due to work which made me really gloomy. then the mindoro reunion is also missed. the only thing that happened was our reunion in my mother side at the club house which is very near to us. im still hoping to have that dream vacation because that's is a gift for my hardworks during college days. oh god please give it to me!
right now, im really at thinking mode on how will i have a financially stable life. i have big plans and i need big money. when i was given the opportunity to work here, they said im fortunate because of my salary and the nature of work however, unfortunately the salary is spent already and i have zero savings. but im happy because i was given a chance to give something for my loved ones and my Priority. it just made me realize that 20k is not enough for me, for my needs or i should have managed it well. parang pup, its not the budget but the misallocation of budget. hehe..
un lng naman. ^^
Sunday, May 16, 2010
the fruitful four years
i'm really scared to express my self to people, i oftentimes feel inferior to others that's why im not using facebook's notes and i'm not sharing my blog's account.
last may 14, 2010, we were appertained as graduates of batch 2010 of the polytechnic university of the philippines. i know its not yet too late to express my thoughts about our graduation, my gratitude to the people who helped me to have what i have right now and to reminisce all the memories i had during college years.
how many times did i regret entering pup, how many times i asked my parents to transfer me to other schools, how many times did i belittle pup and say "sa pup lang".
first year at pup is not that smooth. this was the time i am really wandering, no focus in life, doubting the future and have many confusions in my self. im a stranger in this big world. in my quest of finding what is important- i found a mistake that changed my life. it was hard to accept that i fell to his dirty tactics, i really had a hard time learning to forgive my self.
im really an enthusiast of being an army girl. i love everything about it. on the second semester of my 1st year, i decided to become an officer. i cut my long hair into 2 by 3 whitout any hesitations. i dedicated my time being a plebo. however, getting into my dream is really draining. i have to overcome physical challenges, which i really can't do. many was schocked. i think i had mistaken their first impression on me. my parents intervened and gave me this:" mag-ooficer ka o mag-aaral ka?." i chose the latter, i quit and got back to my academics.
2nd year is like my first year. i still don't know what to do, where to belong, what will make me excellent. i joined the delta pi omicron sorority even though i know the consequences ahead of me.
the happiest moment of second year was when i became the best debater of our sophomore debate challenge. from that, i started to work hard to master the craft of debating.
third year came, this was i think the opening of opportunities for me. i was asked to be the vp-external of pss, which i said yes right away. from then on, i found not only the answer of where i belong, but it gave me a direction, friends and a best friend-ate jeza. she's the first one who believed in me, the only one that said "kaya mo yan!". ate jeza is the only person who genuinely believed i can.
you know who, opened up doors for us. sometimes, pakiramdam ko mahilig lang tlaga syang mag-power trip. i became an ousted speaker of the house, kamuntikan pa kaming mag-kasamaan ng loob ni chael but everything is okay. first time ko ding umiyak in crowd of people because of kuya emil. daming drama pag parl-pro. anyways, you know who, thought me the reality of politics until fourth year, though he's not my prof anymore.
i also exprerienced the the 7th nyp, badap... it was my first time to attend a conference like that. i met youth leaders from different sectors of the society and became friends with them. syempre, mawawala ba dito ung pagbantaan ako ni kenedy, in response i tried to blotter him which is thankfully unsuccessful.
yes, panu ko rin ba kakalimutan ang isa pang pagkakamali, ang hirap talgang matuto. haay. i hope i was forgiven.
at oo, naging kaaway ko din ang mga red people. i became the campaign manager of cefp. dahil naging sobrang bibo ako sa kilos, i was hated nung hindi ako masyadong nag-painvolve when i became the pss president in fourth year.
fourth year, new challenges, new stresses. pss-i became the president of pss 2009-2010. dito ko naranasan lahat ng turmoil of leadership. some people tried to bring me down, ewan ko ba. thankful tlaga ako kay erika whose my secretary for not leaving my side and my other officers as well. kay sir elmer din na adviser namin, at first i thought he did not care for us, but when the biggest problem came, he stood at our side. thank you!
siguro nga wla tlaga akong utang na loob. im sorry po. im just following what my objectives are. ayoko lang po ng nagagamit at nagpapagamit lalong-lalu na kapag mahal ko na ang nasasangkalan. i love pss so much.
natupad ko din ang pangarap ko na marepresent ang college sa university week. thank you sa sod family, ang pangalawa kong pamilya lalo na kay rachael na talagang nag-tyagang i-train kami. you never let us feel na kulang ang kakayanan namin, you never let us feel na inferior kami. thank you!
mawawala ba ang barkadahang pgs. i admit, may mga tampo ako but then, ganun lang yun, im still your friend and you are my friends. thanks kay lucila, na simula first year, andyan sa tabi ko. walang kalimutan huh. love you!
sa wakas, jess-thanks po. pasensya na sa mga mood swings ko. naiinis ksi ako pag nkikita kita, parang naglilihi lang. hehe.. higit sa lahat, sa pagtanggap mo sakin. im trying to change para satin. please dont feel na kulang ka for me, me topak lang tlaga ko madalas, promise magiging minsan na ang madalas. love you po. ^^
sa pamilya ko, kay nanay na pinagkalat na cum laude ako, sensya napo ah minalas kay sir pinalas. kay tatay na laging cool at laging handang magbigay ng mga payo, kay carla na weird. hehe. tpusin m ang 5 years stay m sa pup with your accountancy. kay aya na laging proud sakin, thanks aya, mahaba pa ang pagdadaanan m, andito lng kami. bku ka tlaga! haha!!
AMANG SQOPQUZ, maraming salamat po sa pagpapala at pamamatnubay sa akin. salamat po sa laging pagpapatawad sa mga kasalanan ko at pagtanggap Nyo sakin bilang anak. mahal na mahal ko po Kayo. tulungan po ninyo ako magbago para sa Inyo.
p.s. kay ate abby din, salamat dahil sayo di ako nakasama sa mga vacation trips ko this summer, haha!! kapalit naman ay perang nwala nalng ng di ko namamalayan. thank you for introducing me to the work force. ^^
sa lahat maraming maraming salamat!
pup-tunay kang pinagpala. hindi hindi ako makakalimot sa inang umaruga sa akin ng apat na taon.
sa mga aktibista sa sintang paaralan, baguhin ng konti ang style, its good to identify the problems but it would be better to offer a solution. ^^
last may 14, 2010, we were appertained as graduates of batch 2010 of the polytechnic university of the philippines. i know its not yet too late to express my thoughts about our graduation, my gratitude to the people who helped me to have what i have right now and to reminisce all the memories i had during college years.
how many times did i regret entering pup, how many times i asked my parents to transfer me to other schools, how many times did i belittle pup and say "sa pup lang".
first year at pup is not that smooth. this was the time i am really wandering, no focus in life, doubting the future and have many confusions in my self. im a stranger in this big world. in my quest of finding what is important- i found a mistake that changed my life. it was hard to accept that i fell to his dirty tactics, i really had a hard time learning to forgive my self.
im really an enthusiast of being an army girl. i love everything about it. on the second semester of my 1st year, i decided to become an officer. i cut my long hair into 2 by 3 whitout any hesitations. i dedicated my time being a plebo. however, getting into my dream is really draining. i have to overcome physical challenges, which i really can't do. many was schocked. i think i had mistaken their first impression on me. my parents intervened and gave me this:" mag-ooficer ka o mag-aaral ka?." i chose the latter, i quit and got back to my academics.
2nd year is like my first year. i still don't know what to do, where to belong, what will make me excellent. i joined the delta pi omicron sorority even though i know the consequences ahead of me.
the happiest moment of second year was when i became the best debater of our sophomore debate challenge. from that, i started to work hard to master the craft of debating.
third year came, this was i think the opening of opportunities for me. i was asked to be the vp-external of pss, which i said yes right away. from then on, i found not only the answer of where i belong, but it gave me a direction, friends and a best friend-ate jeza. she's the first one who believed in me, the only one that said "kaya mo yan!". ate jeza is the only person who genuinely believed i can.
you know who, opened up doors for us. sometimes, pakiramdam ko mahilig lang tlaga syang mag-power trip. i became an ousted speaker of the house, kamuntikan pa kaming mag-kasamaan ng loob ni chael but everything is okay. first time ko ding umiyak in crowd of people because of kuya emil. daming drama pag parl-pro. anyways, you know who, thought me the reality of politics until fourth year, though he's not my prof anymore.
i also exprerienced the the 7th nyp, badap... it was my first time to attend a conference like that. i met youth leaders from different sectors of the society and became friends with them. syempre, mawawala ba dito ung pagbantaan ako ni kenedy, in response i tried to blotter him which is thankfully unsuccessful.
yes, panu ko rin ba kakalimutan ang isa pang pagkakamali, ang hirap talgang matuto. haay. i hope i was forgiven.
at oo, naging kaaway ko din ang mga red people. i became the campaign manager of cefp. dahil naging sobrang bibo ako sa kilos, i was hated nung hindi ako masyadong nag-painvolve when i became the pss president in fourth year.
fourth year, new challenges, new stresses. pss-i became the president of pss 2009-2010. dito ko naranasan lahat ng turmoil of leadership. some people tried to bring me down, ewan ko ba. thankful tlaga ako kay erika whose my secretary for not leaving my side and my other officers as well. kay sir elmer din na adviser namin, at first i thought he did not care for us, but when the biggest problem came, he stood at our side. thank you!
siguro nga wla tlaga akong utang na loob. im sorry po. im just following what my objectives are. ayoko lang po ng nagagamit at nagpapagamit lalong-lalu na kapag mahal ko na ang nasasangkalan. i love pss so much.
natupad ko din ang pangarap ko na marepresent ang college sa university week. thank you sa sod family, ang pangalawa kong pamilya lalo na kay rachael na talagang nag-tyagang i-train kami. you never let us feel na kulang ang kakayanan namin, you never let us feel na inferior kami. thank you!
mawawala ba ang barkadahang pgs. i admit, may mga tampo ako but then, ganun lang yun, im still your friend and you are my friends. thanks kay lucila, na simula first year, andyan sa tabi ko. walang kalimutan huh. love you!
sa wakas, jess-thanks po. pasensya na sa mga mood swings ko. naiinis ksi ako pag nkikita kita, parang naglilihi lang. hehe.. higit sa lahat, sa pagtanggap mo sakin. im trying to change para satin. please dont feel na kulang ka for me, me topak lang tlaga ko madalas, promise magiging minsan na ang madalas. love you po. ^^
sa pamilya ko, kay nanay na pinagkalat na cum laude ako, sensya napo ah minalas kay sir pinalas. kay tatay na laging cool at laging handang magbigay ng mga payo, kay carla na weird. hehe. tpusin m ang 5 years stay m sa pup with your accountancy. kay aya na laging proud sakin, thanks aya, mahaba pa ang pagdadaanan m, andito lng kami. bku ka tlaga! haha!!
AMANG SQOPQUZ, maraming salamat po sa pagpapala at pamamatnubay sa akin. salamat po sa laging pagpapatawad sa mga kasalanan ko at pagtanggap Nyo sakin bilang anak. mahal na mahal ko po Kayo. tulungan po ninyo ako magbago para sa Inyo.
p.s. kay ate abby din, salamat dahil sayo di ako nakasama sa mga vacation trips ko this summer, haha!! kapalit naman ay perang nwala nalng ng di ko namamalayan. thank you for introducing me to the work force. ^^
sa lahat maraming maraming salamat!
pup-tunay kang pinagpala. hindi hindi ako makakalimot sa inang umaruga sa akin ng apat na taon.
sa mga aktibista sa sintang paaralan, baguhin ng konti ang style, its good to identify the problems but it would be better to offer a solution. ^^
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