bakit?

going to office this day, i gave my salary for my father, 5k for the church and 5k for his project, then we found out that 1k for his project was lost. i am really shattered. takte!! bkit!! dun ko lng nilagay yun, cnong kumuha?!!!


sobrang depressing kasi. hindi naman un para sakin, para yun sa pagtulong ko tapos ganun pa. my first 2 salaries were not spent for my self alone, but i gave it to my loved ones and my Priority. then why? it's so unfair tlaga.

ewan ko ba. kung anu-ano naiisip ko ngayon. cguro nagtatampo sakin ang AMA. naipangako ko kasi magbibigay ako ng 10 k sa church sa unang sweldo ko. ang nangyari kasi my first salary was spent for my graduation. tpos siguro karma- kamuntikan n kong grumaduate sa taxi. buti nlang 2 minutes before the ceremony starts, nasa word trade center nako. tpos ngayon kasi, i halved the 10k promise. 5k for my father, because i also promise that i would help him for his project in cagayan, so 5k nalng matitira for the church. kulang ng another 5k. kea siguro nwalan ako ng 1k for my father's project. haay. nakakaiyak talaga. pede po bang intindihin muna AMA. haay.....


may tatlo akong suspect eh-c nanay, c carla-kapatid ko, c ate ruby-kamag-anak namin na tagalinis ng bahay. syempre ang nanay ko hindi nya yun gagawin sakin, sa dami ng pera nun. so dalawa nalang, c carla at ate ruby. hindi naman kasi naka-lock ang kwarto ko at yung pera nilagay ko lang dun sa gilid ng cabinet ko.

c carla: 1. labas - pasok sa kwarto ko; 2. galit un sakin eh, ksi dapt sbay kaming pupuntang mindoro for our reunion pero di na natuloy kasi nahiya na ko magpaalam dito sa office; 3. madami na syang history ng pangunguha ng pera sa bahay, mostly si nanay ang biktima. kahit kitang-kita na, never naman syang umamin.

c ate ruby:1. labas-pasok din sya sa kwarto ko, syempre nililinis nya un; 2. tinanong ko sya sabi nya never daw sya naglinis dun, pero nung inulit ko ung tanong-nagwawalis lang daw sya at hindi nya pinupunasan ang mga bagay-bagay sa kwarto ko. (bakit kelangan nyang mag-deny na naglinis sya when i first asked her, and kapag ba walis lang ginawa mo, would that free you from getting money to my cabinet...); 3. nasa gipit sila ngayon. suppose to be going to abroad sya to work but it was found out that she was pregnant, she does not have any other work than to be our helpy.

ayun. pinagdasal ko nalng ang mga bagay-bagay. nakakadepress.... haay..........