that time, i feel the happiness, peace within me. this is my long time dream. i feel like i'm alive again. now i know the answers to my questions. thank you!
sseayp, i was not chosen to be part of it. i feel rejected coupled by the last week's rejections in our attempt to be employed in the government. we went to malacanang-pms and office of the president hr. they are looking for our eligibility which is as of now pending. tpos naabutan kmi ng lunch time so we waited for the dbm hr to resume. what we got is we don't have vacancy and you don't have eligibility.
we moved to the center of manila. dot has no vacancy, then goodly our cv is accepted in pta. then we walked to un street. we stooped at who na medyo masungit ang guard. inabot lng namin yung cv sa window and that's it. when i asked when to update, he said tawagan nlng kau. fine! then to ca, sir francis the hr secretary told us the selection process. for 2 vacancies for the position of clerk, 30 are competing for it. first, you have to have the eligibility, then you are going to have an exam prepared by the ca, finally the board will select among them. the least salary for a government employee is 8,000 per month. we went to doj. we had a surprising experience there. out of nowhere, getting our way to hr, a not so old man called us and interviewed us. out of my knowledge, he was the chief of information division. he said that he wanted to have us but we don't have the eligibility yet, he added that we should drop there any time soon as soon as we have the result. after doj is sc. since my tita was there and itay also worked there, i wanted to follow their foot steps but i feel i wont make it. then we tried at nbi, i really like the guy there when he told us " that's next to impossible! we only hire cpa and lawyers here." then we went home with sor of low spirits and dreams wrecked.
i don't want to buried my self of loneliness, depression, anxieties and all sorts. i'm still trying to have high hopes.
i just wanted to release this. i feel unaccepted which is the most painful part. may tampo talga ko sa mga officers ng pss especially ginette. she does not answering my texts, my messages. parang bkit ganun, im offering help but you are telling me na hindi namin kailangan. im offering concern tpos you're telling me, no thank you. im really attached to the organization. sometimes, when she texted me asking for something, although i don't have a load, i will do just to reply to her. pero pag ako simpleng kamusta lng wla. anyways ganun tlga siguro. i'm trying to understand, syempre bka madmi din tlga silang ginagawa na hindi na talaga masisingit ang a minute of kamustahan. fine. fine. fine....
yes! i need a company to talk to, friend to share with. gusto ko tlga silang makita ulit especially the pgs. i never feel this kind of vulnerability before. aizt....
but im planning again. hehe... never say die!
i would be getting a masteral for philippine studies at upd this 2nd semester. but i feel anxious about it. ewan ko ba. help!!!
bhala na tlga. i wanted to get law din. isa isa lng. hehe..
AMA please help!
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